Not sure what is going on with me lately but I am so blah, as much as I love the warmer weather I think I would trade it these days for some serious sunshine, even if that means bringing back the cold. January has really sucked for me lately, first off it's my birthday and well all that means these days is getting older. Secondly my favourite holiday season is over and I find it harder and harder every year to say goodbye to the Christmas season. Thirdly(is that a word??) the weather sucks, even this year when we have had such a mild January, it is so dull and miserable looking it doesn't do much for me. I am tired of having to turn the lights on by 3pm..it's crazy.
Other things bringing on the blahs are lack of sleep which means lack of energy, lack of energy means lack of motivation and lack of motivation means a lack of desire to move my butt off the couch, which means that that same butt is slowly expanding...sigh. Everyday I tell myself that I am going to do Wii fit once Keir is in bed, well the stinker doesn't go to bed till late late late and then I'm lucky if he stays put. So then my new plan was to do it during the day while the older boys were occupied in the playroom and Keir was napping...but guess who is refusing to nap these days....damn teething pain.
So bring on the night weaning!! I have been somewhat successfully night weaning Keir and he has for the first time since he was born having occasional stretches of 5 and 6 hours so that combined with having gone through this with Rufus tells me there is a light at then end of the tunnel. Now if only the better night time sleeping can bring about better day time sleeping.(whoever said that sleep begets sleep lied!!!)
So where am I going with this rambling? Truth be told I am not really sure, I do know though that some changes need to be made, I need to get some motivation in my life so I can feel better about myself and just all around feel better. So I started by getting off my butt and getting the boys outside to enjoy the warm(albeit gloomy) day. They played on the little hill in our front yard as I worked on making it bigger while shovelling the snow. I was thoroughly impressed with how well they all played outside today, and especially impressed with how much Keir seemed to enjoy playing out in the snow. After about an hour outside chris got home and took Keir inside and Ewan & Rufus and I continued to have fun outside building a snowman.(Thanks for the idea Teresa!!) Tomorrow we are taking the boys bowling, so maybe this can be a turning point for me...wish me luck!